Really! October! So soon!
This post is heavily influenced from the last of my wine from a jar that reads “always rum responsibly”. My wine glass is on the top shelf and I am just not in the mood to climb a stool to reach it…short person issue.
I am blissfully happy to say that I was off work today. The same is true for tomorrow. My boss pushed me into the supervisor role over the weekend. I was not willing to comply since I was not compensated for the role. Meaning, every
time a major decision needed to be made I fetched the store manager. I doubt I’ll be put in charge of the department until sometime in the new year. My current plans are to save enough money to pay for Sparkles’ braces, bifocals for me, and a new vacuum cleaner. Once those are paid for I will consider leaving the workforce and returning home full-time. As a home educating mother I belong at home full time…that is how I see reality at the moment. I will consult with my husband before leaving work. I will reach these three goals within six months….by Spring-time.
In the mean-time, I am working hard to balance my need for rest, educating my children and working outside the home. So far I am totaling failing at my need for rest but the other
priorities are on par. Since returning home from the Wild+Free Conference I feel good about my home educating choices. Despite my failings I’ve done a fairly decent job of preparing my children for…reality. Not only are they good kids but they are good people. I can depend on them to help me….and to help each other.
Recently, I’ve wondered what it means to be a homeschooling mother in their eyes. How do they see me? Am I a teacher or a mother? To my relief they see a “mommy” who wants to learn alongside them. I was a little intimidated to learn that
my self-worth depended upon their answer. They see me as a guide but also as a fellow learner on the journey of home education. Reality brings my responsibility for their education and soul development home. So much responsibility in my hands. Do they even realize how much I feel for their character and soul development? Sometimes they do but mostly they are not aware.
But I am aware and I am afraid…
in pursuit of wild things 
October 10, 2017 at 11:16 pm
I hear yah! I went back to work so we would have enough money for a down payment on a house, and then I continued to work to buy the major furniture pieces I had always dreamed of…dinning room table, hutch, china cabinet, bedroom suite, and piano. Once we got our saving account breathing again I began buying the lifetime furniture I wanted. Then I refinanced our mortgage and not only got a 15 yr mortgage I saved hundreds of dollars doing it!
There was a blessing after all in only being able to afford a tiny house at 12.5% interest. We bought in the Regan years. When interest rates dropped to 7.25% I pounced!
I was able to lower our mortgage payment enough to retire and 2 yrs. later we had our 2nd child. Cause I wasn’t having anymore children if we had to send them off to daycare or school care. That was not my plan or dream of motherhood.
I was never, ever a career woman. My Mother and sister are, but I’m not. We’re all different and have dreams. I’m here if that is the kind of friend you need; one that will support those dreams, and not make you conform to mine…just do not try to make me conform to yours. Let’s be different, and celebrate, and support, and help each other reach those dreams! A spouse should be the same I’ve always thought. Thankfully, I found one who is. 🙂
I love the idea of Homeschooling, and I’ve done it, but I don’t have the confidence to go unschooling…I’m doing that now, but when I think it’s time to get serious about education I find myself applying the brakes and deferring to the school system which I detest. I don’t have any confidence in unschooling now when I know it’s time to be writing, putting the phonics lessons to real use and reading, and where to go with History, and Science on my own.
I bow to you and other Homeschooler’s that have figured it out! I bought ready made programs for both my children for the few years I homeschooled. I’m tempted to that again, but this isn’t mine, and I’m not the one making the decisions when he becomes school age. 😦
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October 10, 2017 at 11:17 pm
You are such a wonderful mama! 💖There is no need to fear. You are exactly the mom your children need and you’re giving them an amazing childhood and education. You rock! 🙌🏻 I love the rainbow photo.
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October 11, 2017 at 9:02 am
I don’t know how you working mamas do it! I don’t know that I could handle workimg outside of the home and homeschool. You guys amaze me!
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October 16, 2017 at 8:40 am
Hi Audria, I had to write you and convey a praise for home schooling. I have been praying specifically that God would send a few families with children to our church for as you know this church lost half of its families due to a music split before we came here. (When families arrived previously they’d love our Biblical values, church and lovely older members but since there wasn’t a lot of children would find another church.)
Well imagine my surprise when a family with 14 children (!!!) all ages, arrived on our church doorstep a few weeks ago! Now they are indicating that they are strongly leaning toward joining our congregation. I could just tell these sweet, polite, intelligent children were home-schooled. They are so much fun too. When God blesses, He does so abundantly doesn’t He? Specific prayer works! Blessings back, ❤
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October 17, 2017 at 9:28 pm
Wow! Such exciting news!
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