I’m sitting by the ridiculously large fireplace at Great Wolf Lodge this morning watching the place wake up. The morning shift is arriving and the night crew are escaping before the sun rises. I’ve got a large vanilla latte from the coffee shop to sip on. I was so tempted to get a donut too but settled for just the coffee. Last night’s Donato’s wasn’t kind to my stomach but even that was expected. A donut would only make things worse. I am slowly succumbing to this chest cold I’ve been fighting. I think it will be a miserable weekend at work for me.
I’ve been avoiding writing. Writing helps me put things in their place. A way to scrub my soul and be rid of feelings, hurts and all the forbidden desires that are unacceptable to express in polite society. But society doesn’t seem all that polite to me anymore. I’m not even talking about the idiot politicians putting on a show in D.C.
My daughter was recently discriminated against. Sparkles shared her secret with a friend. The little girl shared Sparkles’ secret with her mother. The mother told several people and began treating my daughter as something less than human. Ironically, the mother constantly posts on Facebook about the evils of discrimination. She shares articles about inclusion and acceptance. This situation has been going on for a while now. This weekend I finished it. I informed the family there was to be no more contact between us. She denied any of this happened and lied to me. I could have done and said so much at this point. I chose to walk away. I feel sorry for Sparkles’ friend. She just learned that she cannot trust her mother. Both little girls lost their friend through no real fault of their own. Hating someone over something that a person cannot change about themselves is diabolical.
I cannot tell the whole story because it is not mine to tell. I have my own feelings and the consequences of the events to live with. I have forgiven much in my life. Right now, I cannot forgive nor do I even want to try. A part of me feels like I should be sad or concerned over my lack. But no such feelings exist within me. For me, this incident burned any desire I once had to belong to a certain part of society. I see no compassion in these people who worship Divine Compassion. My anger isn’t even hot and raging; it is cold.
Only ashes remain.
January 25, 2019 at 8:24 am
Why in the world . . . ??? How could someone hurt Sparkles like that???!!! She is one of the most lovely young ladies I’ve ever met. Such a loss that this woman doesn’t up her heart to get to know her. It’s her loss. Hugs to you both, ❤
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February 10, 2019 at 9:14 pm
Thank you Ellie!!! Hugs and kisses to you!
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January 25, 2019 at 8:51 am
You and Sparkles continue to be in my heart and prayers. I’m here if you need to talk more. Sometimes severing connections is for the best. You’re a good mama. 💕 Sparkles is a sweet girl. She is blessed to have such a loving family.
I hope you feel better soon. It’s too bad you have to work this weekend.
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January 25, 2019 at 10:50 am
So sorry you had to go through that and oh my heart for Sparkles, she is one of the sweetest girls I know. May it be used to learn from. Praying for you friend. I know the hurt of friendship and also from people that are family. Boundaries are a good thing! Trust the Lord with it.
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January 25, 2019 at 11:16 am
I’m so sorry that happened to you and Sparkles.. I pray that you will be able to come to terms with things and forgive that woman. TRUST God in the midst of this. Give your daughter a hug for me.
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January 25, 2019 at 4:07 pm
Hitting the like button seems wrong. But I like the way you handled it. People like that don’t deserve your friendship or share your company. Sparkles I feel so sorry for as her friend let her down. It will take time to trust again and hope she will. My best wishes to you all. Give Sparkles a big hug from this side of the pond.
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February 10, 2019 at 9:15 pm
She said thank you for the hug and wished she could give you a hug too.
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February 11, 2019 at 4:23 am
Consider virtual hug received all ok. How cool was that. 🤗
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January 28, 2019 at 8:00 pm
The mother is not a very nice person. Feel sorry for your daughter.
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February 10, 2019 at 9:14 pm
I am sad for her daughter too.
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